Ytd I was so happy rem?
Today my heart felt thud of sadness.
First I was pretty upset bout the boss and the last min full time girl that change her mind of not quitting. I felt my emotion being affected as I was quite excited. Though she say I can go anytime for part time, yes I know she is
veryyy nice but I just want a full time for this long period.
2
nd It feel so different with S, its like what am I to him now? We don't have any peaceful moment. But I didn't tell him how I felt, or maybe I did but he just ignore. I mean seriously there a lot to understand behind this sentences.
3rd I needed some friends to be around me, and rely on but somehow everyone is not free for me. Maybe I just didn't let myself go and tell them
I DON'T KNOW.
Maybe I just have to be independent but from what I know I have been really really independent, I don't bug on S anymore because my calls was irritating to him when he is busy.
I don't find my two close girl that much because I know they have their bf and friends too,so I can't be selfish and feel that they should be there all the time.
When I am sad I don't make a big fuss about it.
Maybe I
jus slp and
tmr is fine.
HAHHAA cos I am always fine aft that
I feel so bad toward my parents.
I get so frustrated whenever I am sad because I do not want anyone to come near me.
I eat a lot whenever I am sad.
Yes I sound super sad right? But last but not least I hate
ppl who try to act pitiful
oh man I feel so different from
ytd but never mind I will be fine real
sooon as usual.
A girl like me is never going to be defeated easily.
PS: Do your love one isolate you and somehow get frustrated whenever he sees you....... ?
Oh my,tears.